A note before you read.
I write like someone who walked into the church machinery, saw it up close, and walked back out, refusing to walk back in on the old terms. Not bitter. Not done. Stubbornly faithful.
I think by writing letters. To my anxiety. To my church. To my 20-year-old self. Sometimes a letter is the only honest form.
I keep refusing the binaries. I choose the way. I don't know if I'll ever fit on a Church again. I'm OK with that.
Questions I keep coming back to:
- Am I a billboard? → I am not a billboard
- Is faith reasonable for an engineer? → The case for Christian skepticism
- Am I arriving anywhere, or just moving? → Breaking 90 and the illusion of arrival
Underneath everything: an expat's loneliness. I left a small fishing village in southern Brazil at 20. I've ended a lot of worlds since. Some never quite end.
These are 15 years of writing. Some of it is who I was. Some is who I'm becoming. Read accordingly.
If you are here, start with these.
Seven essays, hand-picked. The shortest path to the voice underneath.
Tech AI :: Where I'm Drawing the Line Why I keep humans in the room even when an agent is cheaper. Free Thought A Conversation With My Anxiety A letter from anxiety. My reply. From my father’s fishing boats to AI doomscrolling. Golf Breaking 90, and the Illusion of Arrival A tournament round on my home course doubles as a parable on goalposts that keep moving. Bible Find the David Within You A keyboard meltdown in a Hollywood church. The Pentecostal night that followed. Free Thought Thanksgiving Friends of mine keep a leafless tree of gratitude in their living room. Abraham built altars for the same reason. Bible The Light the Darkness Cannot Understand Gospel of John meets Tolkien. Why Sauron couldn’t imagine the Hobbit destroying the Ring.
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Library of the ResurrectionThe case for sitting with the most fantastic story ever told. 10 essays across 10 years. The archive
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2026 11 essays
- 10/16Fraught with BackgroundBible
- 08/29A Garden You Can Pray ThroughBible
- 08/23Heroes of Jazz, Part Two: Getting to Know LouisMusic
- 08/16Heroes of Jazz, Part One: Getting to Know MilesMusic
- 07/08Money in Your PocketBible
- 07/02"Refreshing" Its MemoryTech
- 06/18Joana Keeps the Feeder FullBible
- 05/26Does God Still Walk Among Us?Bible
- 04/14We never loseGolf
- 02/24AI :: Where I'm drawing the lineTech
- 01/09"I Am": Recovering the Divine VoiceBible
2025 6 essays
2024 6 essays
2023 2 essays
2019–2022 4 years. Nothing published. The archive says more about that stretch by leaving it empty than any note would.
2018 8 essays
2017 11 essays
- 12/31Goodbye 2017Free Thought
- 12/14How to Change?Bible
- 12/11I Have a Problem With the Bible!Bible
- 12/04It is she!Short Stories
- 07/17Find the David within YouBible
- 07/11Songs That Speak to Me of the Kingdom :: Stand by YouMusic
- 05/01Vegetarian, Me?Free Thought
- 04/16The Tomb Is EmptyBible
- 04/143 Solid Reasons Why Believing Jesus Came Back From the Dead Is the Result of BrainwashingBible
- 04/13The Farce of the GospelsBible
- 04/07A Third OptionFree Thought
2016 8 essays
- 12/31Goodbye 2016Free Thought
- 12/30Malafaia and the Lack of FriendsFree Thought
- 12/24Harry Potter and ChristmasBible
- 12/14Christmas, a Pagan Feast — Definitive Guide (part 3 of 3)Free Thought
- 12/14Christmas, a Pagan Feast — Definitive Guide (part 2 of 3)Free Thought
- 12/14Christmas, a Pagan Feast — Definitive Guide (part 1 of 3)Bible
- 11/01A letter to a dear friendFree Thought
- 04/12I think, therefore I believeBible
2015 15 essays
- 12/31Goodbye 2015Free Thought
- 12/26I Am Not a Billboard!Free Thought
- 11/14#prayForHumanityFree Thought
- 11/10HomeMusic
- 11/04Fire!Music
- 10/23X-RayShort Stories
- 09/17There Will Be a Blue SkyMusic
- 08/07Virtual Friends and LonelinessFree Thought
- 06/27Love WinsBible
- 06/09I Keep Choosing the WayFree Thought
- 02/26Why Don't I Go to Church Anymore?Free Thought
- 02/14What Are the Values of a Family Without (a) GodFree Thought
- 02/11What Difference Does It Make If God Exists?Bible
- 01/15An Idea for the ChurchFree Thought
- 01/08The Curse of ReligionFree Thought
2014 36 essays
- 12/31Goodbye 2014Free Thought
- 12/25How to Recognize and Accept Jesus?Bible
- 12/20Exodus – Gods and KingsBible
- 11/28Black FridayFree Thought
- 11/22Growing Old...Free Thought
- 11/11I Looked Sadness in the Eyes and SmiledMusic
- 10/02Burn a Rainbow Flag and Get ElectedBible
- 09/30The Place for the Unchurched Is in the StreetsBible
- 09/12A House Is Not a HomeMusic
- 08/19Marina and the Holy WarFree Thought
- 08/15Entrepreneur, Play Fair!Free Thought
- 08/14The Challenge of Being "A BelieverFree Thought
- 08/13Robin… oh Robin :(Free Thought
- 08/01Unconvert Yourself!Bible
- 07/30Those Who Have a Promise Don't DieBible
- 07/30Nerd MomentFree Thought
- 07/26You Are Not AloneBible
- 07/22Jesus RichBible
- 07/19Let a Vida Me LevarFree Thought
- 07/18Death TollFree Thought
- 07/16Trendy AtheistFree Thought
- 07/10Rest in PeaceFree Thought
- 07/09Don't Let the Samba DieFree Thought
- 07/08The Day of the ContrariansFree Thought
- 07/01Long Live the World Cup!Free Thought
- 06/30A Letter to Julio CesarFree Thought
- 06/26Walk On – [U2 Discography]Music
- 06/17The World Cup and ChristmasFree Thought
- 05/29Carpe DiemFree Thought
- 05/2230 YearsFree Thought
- 05/05There Will Be a World CupFree Thought
- 04/29We Are All MonkeysFree Thought
- 04/10Gospel Music Is Sin… SometimesMusic
- 04/07NoahBible
- 03/10It's UnbearableBible
- 02/08The Power of HabitsFree Thought
2013 15 essays
- 12/31Goodbye 2013Free Thought
- 12/19A Rooster That Doesn't Know the CloudTech
- 10/25Loose ThoughtsFree Thought
- 10/17There's a Boy, There's a RascalFree Thought
- 10/05It's the End of the WorldFree Thought
- 09/28Rush and the Million Dollar QuestionFree Thought
- 08/03C.S. Lewis and "EcumenismBible
- 07/24About the Pope, Stones, and AccusationsBible
- 07/16Brazil Before the ThroneBible
- 06/20For the Love of Lost CausesBible
- 06/13Protests in BrazilFree Thought
- 05/30And This Remains My WishFree Thought
- 05/21About Heroes and VillainsFree Thought
- 04/04About Changes and Roller CoastersFree Thought
- 03/20I Choose The WayFree Thought